Story of my life

Today is the end of october, tomorrow will be my birthday month but yet i still face a lot of problem that i don't know how to solve it. Fact that my friends told me is i'm not beauty enough, i don't have fair skin just like them, what i wear sometimes become disaster, i have small eyes and big mouth which are to them are totally not a beauty type. I know they are beauty person, every friends see them told they are beautiful and unlike me. I never down because of that but because every time i over raising my voice, they said i'm emotional, when they are doing like that, i just keep silent and hear, but when comes to me, they just pass away. 

Today incident is, i just  don't want a coin money because my wallet cannot support to much of them, then everybody get angry with me, okay its my mistake. Because of this, everybody get angry with me, its like they want to show that they always be patient to me but i'm already cross the limits. Hello, i just keep everything happen in my heart only, everything they do to me, i just keep cause i never want to get angry, i hate to argue. To them, when i start talk, it just like i'm blabbering only, its happen when they talk too. I'm not a good writer who can write a lot of thing, i'm also not a good adviser but i'm a good listener. Everything that you want to ask, just ask me, i can hear well and keep well the secret. Honestly, when i think back what happen to me, it just kifarah and what i said a few years ago turn me like this. When i was a primary school, i always told to myself that i will never fall in love or been couple with anyone as long i'm studying, and now it still happen to me. When people want to know my experience about being love with anyone else, i just said 0 experience but i feel my family's love towards me.

Forget about my little story and hope tomorrow is better than today. chill up