EMOTIONAL

lately i have been too emotional and i don't know why?. even its only a simple mistake, i want to cry. maybe to other its normal but for girl like me is abnormal. i use to keep the feel and pretend to be happy but now i'm too emotional, i get angry even a small matter. hhahahah perhaps i in stress mode with assignment. maybe.... i made decision, the decision that i even hardly to make it. i ask ijam to delete my name in his tweet. and now we're not chatting anymore. hah sad, miss, of course the thing happen but i'm not a girl who will pressure him to love me back cause i know he still love Z. if ask him, does he know my birthday. of course he not even we were close friend. i'm just nobody to him.

i don't want to remember it anymore. new story. new story. you want know something, i think my chemistry with bread lately its to strong or maybe i just miss my dad bread?. hurmmmm i watch a drama and movie that have bakery shop. how lovely their bread..huhuhuhu i'm hungry right now. don't you hungry too. ahahahha now i'm listening fai sing a song entitle "cinta".. how lucky she are in love with someone that love her too. hope you guys get married soon. thia already sleep, dilla also. hhahaha i will continue watch drama 49 days. fai said it was a sad drama. but we will wait and see.

STRESS VS CHILDISH ACTION

hahahah stress doing assignment, what madam want in this assignment also i don't know. DAD( DATABASE ANALYSIS DESIGN). i must redo back my assignment. madam just write no example, this wrong, but i don't know what wrong madam. huhuhuhu

now stress increase more because of you, ijam. why you update your tweet using my full name hah? even i don't use it usually. i only use in formal event. please ijam. you happy with your life and i'm gonna make my life happy too. who do you like and what do you want to do its up to you but please remove my name, i feel awkward being like that. i admit, before this i want to block you because i cannot handle myself for not take note about you. but i'm realize now it myself to handle it. i'm not going to block you. i maybe cannot be like before. i don't want to keep people annoyed with me. i'm sorry for my mistake.

hahah fai said my voice is small but high pitch. hahhaha its sound like child when it want something when i shout through out the window. hahahahah i always miss the moment to go picnic with family. its really long time not see them. i wish i could meet them.

yeayyyyyyyy semester holiday is nearrrrrrr, cannot wait it anymore

STRESS AND SAD

why stress. hahhaha it because there is too much assignment to do, practical of computer system, mock interview, submit assignment system analysis design(sad), dad, pp. huhuhuhuhu my head wanna explode. its all must be tomorrow. whyyyyyyyyyyyyy..  yesterday i went to thia's cousin engagement, feel so bored, went i came back, i fall asleep and wake up this morning. hhahah too long time to sleep.

sad, why you come when time is not suitable, but thank to you crush aka ijam, well i must admit that i need to move on and forget him, i wish i can. can i block you ijam. i don't want to chat with you anymore. forgive for all my mistake. and i feel so ashamed that i have enough brave to tell you that i like you before this. like i said to hus and my mom, maybe i don't wanna get married. not because i don't want to have family, i want but i afraid i don't get a person who love me with their heart, i'm afraid, when i see many men are bad. not all men like playboy or such like love to play with others heart. i admit, maybe i'm too childish to say like this because i doesn't have experience but i said what i have seen in my daily life and married is such a good thing to do but terrified me. i know what happen to my life, ALLAH SWT know better than me. hahaha but don't worry i'm not a kind of lesbian, YA ALLAH please away me from that thing. its haram in ISLAM. i think i want to improve my social skill and perhaps i want to post my video in this blog. hahhaha just want to try it. like pretty good eh.

HYE HYE HYE

now i'm at thia's house which mean i'm force by her to here. by the way tomorrow will be thia's cousin weeding and i have to join it. huhuhuhuh so sad. hahhahah this week i meet new friends which is thia's friends name alam, jamil, aiman, bangla, qutee, aleh, and hafizzuddin. hye friends ^_^ . also thanks to syipa, i have receive my shawl. cannot wait to wear it ahaks. you know what, i'm playing with my heart right now, i think cause i said to myself if ijam don't online 3 days when i'm online that we were meant together, now its true. hahhaha too childish am i right. do i look care when people said that i'm not eldest daughter in my family. but people always think that i'm the youngest one. hahhah i look pretty young. hoorey .

fai i borrow your wedges, next sem i think i should bring my wedges.

MORNING2 AND SMILE

hahahahha just a busy day again today, hahahah i miss mr FI again. hahahahah but FI is not main character today. to day is my bestie. first is husna. i know her since grade 2 primary school until now. alhamdulillah we still best buddies until now. she know everything about me, my problem and about FI too. instead of that she always give me support. thnx sis. next my buddies who know my problem since grade 1 secondary school is anas and balkish. thnx friends for always beside me even we now only contact via fb and phone. miss you all. last is thia, jiha, dila, mai, bella, fai my friends at here. not forget my crazy cousin, bob. hahahah i hope you all achieve your happiness first. i'm happy when you all happy.

FI

hey you, when you ask for couple. honestly i feel happy but at the same time i scare if you just kidding. before this you already tell me for not put a hope for you and you said you didn't forget she. i just want a guy who love me. i don't want a puppy love, i just want a love with marriage ending. i know its hard. but i scared if you said like that, i' afraid you will leave me or broke my heart. i'm sorry if i just like syok sendiri.

HELLOOOO

hahhaha i know major of people getting tired with my useless update. nonsense talking and blabbering about am i right. hey you, can you tell me why my feel heart feel wanna cry. hurm i know that problem now. i might make someone that i love hurt. it feel pain and i feel that too. hahhahah you might think this is cliche but for me is true and i don't lie about it. but i'm happy now my family still healthy and i hope everyone happy too. i'm not perfect person but just a person who try to be nice and still learn to be nice

CLEANING HOUSE

hahhahaha such as crazy thing to do when you're mood supposedly to study or doing assignment during revision week but my housemate decide to clean our house. hahahaha enjoy the moment washing every inch of our house. what i'm blabbering about? just ignore it. its just an intro. this morning when everything have been okay, i opened back twitter and Facebook. see he already sign out. hurm hahahha when i opened his twitter account (betul ke ayt ni. bantai je la). he already change his header.its look like cute guy. its that him. YA ALLAH such a cute guy. he look so young than i imagine.

fai said he maybe lied to me, perhaps that picture was not him. but my instinct said i don't love his face but his attitude. seriously he so cute. hahahha is that your picture mr FI. hahahah if not you, i don't mind, but said to that guy. your so cute hahahah. totally i said, i always look at appearance before his attitude but i don't know why i love your style. if FI read this, ignore it ma, okay.

i try to look a person who can hear i blabbering, sing with terrible voice, hear my problem and i can hear that person problem too. hahahah not everything we can share with parents. i don't want my parent worried to much about me. i want that person always remind me my responsibility to ALLAH SWT and not to having to much fun because perhaps one day i maybe hurt. always keep smile fie. hahah don't worry about that.hahah such like a crazy person.

DREAMING

i think i just like can dream to have a guy who can make me smile when i have a problem and will lend his hear to hear i'm blabbering. but it just a dream. i admit i'm not a really good person that deserve good guy but its not easy to open your heart as you want. i have make a mistake for fall in love to you but it just that i the only one chase you. like you said its better we be only friend. to looking for another guy as you said its totally impossible right now. cause i had made a decision to close my heart for fall in love to other guy except my husband only. insyaallah i will make it true. its not your fault that i'm being like this. its my fault for fall in love to the person that only in dream also i can't catch it. hahahah what nonsense i'm talking right now.

forget about it. focus your future. catch your dream. and the most wanted yow  is flying to oversea continue degree there( perhaps). wish me luck okay. i want to have great job. (dreaming to be a programmer in microsoft company) pray for me to achieve my dream.