biggest crush

yuhuuuuuu everybody has their own crush am i right. i don't know if this kind of feeling whether crush or i'm already fall in love with that. it just kind of sweet but at the same time painful for waiting that person even your deny that feel.

i never wish that person to be my first love. my special crush just i don't know why i love that person. am i stupid cause love the person even i don't know how he/her face. just kind of weird because all the time i get know him/her, we always argue like kid and i still remember all the moment. hurm i don't know what i'm writing now. just little crazy but my crush is the one of my best friend . i miss that person so much even i know that person already have the one that he love too. i'm always try to be cool even its hard. so i hope he doesn't get hurt what i'm trying to do. 

i hate him,

he just came when he needs me,

when i want to forget him, 

he reminds me old memory,

why been like this,

i hate this situation,

i hate to know that,

 i'm just supporting character,

in your life,

you never know me,

you been secret with me,

all the story about you, 

but i still miss you,

your my biggest crush,

i have been crush you,

a long time before.

so mr FI. i miss you but i know i'm not somebody special to you to tell those word to you. so i hope you'll be happy with your love.